A Life Full of Sunshine and Rainbows...: June 2012

Ok, I think there has been a lot going on that I haven't told you about... just general life stuff.

1.  I GOT TO MY GOAL WEIGHT!!! I'm so excited I'm going to shout that out again. I GOT TO MY GOAL WEIGHT!!! Did you hear me?! I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I don't think I've been at a healthy weight since... hmm... grade 4?! You should see my grad picture! I'll get my mom to send me one so I can post it. (that would be your cue mom.)

I hit this goal last week. Now I need to maintain it for 6 weeks. My goal is to push myself for another 5 lbs. This would be I would probably weigh what I did grade 7. I can go to the store and buy a medium. My pants are single digits. The thing is, I still view myself as almost 200lbs (my heaviest). I wasn't even that heavy 9 mths pregnant with Anna!!!  In the last 11 years since high school I have lost about 55lbs. (yah, so the simple math and you'll know what i weigh). I go in a store buy a size 8, but I still see a size 18 in the mirror. Now I've got some head work to do.

How did I do it? EXERCISE!!!! and healthy eating and EXERCISE!!! I can jog/run a 5K and now I'm thinking 10K should be my next goal. I haven't ever done a "run", you know a times event thing. I am going to do my first in July.

2. A very integral person in my life passed away last Saturday, my boss. He was a very kind individual. I first go to know him when I worked at a local hardware store. He was one of my customers.   He must have seen something positive in me, cause I was asked to apply for my current job, that was 5.5 yrs ago. He was a man who never got mad and yelled at someone at work. He was always calm and collected. He always had time for a good chat, I really miss that. When I went back to work last summer, after loosing Mackenzie, he came in to check on me all the time. We spent many hours talking about life and death, grieft and loss. He was always interested in my life. I also know that he was an amazing father and grandfather. He was so proud of his grandkids, they seemed to be his world. I will miss you.

3. I got this really beautiful quilt from my best "never-actually-met-her-in-real-life" friend, Ruby. We also received a book of rainbows created by my "moms" and their children. One wonderful woman, even made me a rainbow shawl. These gifts are all beautiful.

Snuggles with out Mackenzie bear and rainbow quilt.

4. Anna has been talking a lot about Mackenzie lately. I really love that she does, and sometimes it makes me wonder... for example about a year ago, Anna and I were playing outside when she told me that Mackenzie was sleeping in her bed. Ok, I figured she was talking about the bear, so I enquired, "No, Mackenzie is sleeping in my bed."

This week she told her day home provider that "Mackenzie's in the house today..." and she told her this while using the potty! So the lady asked where? She's here in the house... was Anna's reply. She talked about Mackenzie a lot that day. I asked her a couple times if she was referring to her bear. She would simply repeat her statement saying just "Mackenzie". Normally if she is talking about the bear she says, "Kenzie bear". I think this is kinda neat. I hope the girls do have some type of heaven and earth connection. I have been encouraging Anna to sing nicely at bedtime so Mackenzie can hear her. Then she stops singing in her funny cartoon voice.

Well I'm sure I could find more leftovers, but well wish you a happy weekend instead!