Time

Well, time feels like it's whirling by me. 

• I have yet to complete Mackenzie's scrapbook or even work on it in months
• Anna's birthday has come and gone and i still need to post some pictures
• it's been 10.5 months since Mackenzie was born, and I'm trying to be patient
• I feel a lot of turmoil as the days pass me by, getting close to "that day"
• I feel like I haven't spent the last year "in the moment", I feel somewhat disconnected
• I feel like I haven't spent nearly enough time in prayer

What I needed to be reminded of, I found on a friend's blog.  I don't think she wrote these words entirely, but what I understood was that I need to be still.  Let God take the reigns and lead me.  Trust in His guidance and to pray for His guidance.  I often get so caught up in what i am trying to accomplish that i forget to sit back, close my eyes and ask for His help.  I wonder if I was still a little more if I would actually get "there" faster.  I wish time would stand still with me.  I don't really want to get to "that" day.  Does it mean that a year has gone by and i should be that more "over" loosing my daughter? 

On another note, this has been on my mind for some time...  Are you willing to stand up for your Christianity like Christ did?  Are you ready to weather that storm?  Are you willing to be persecuted for your beliefs?  Are you willing to whisper the name of Jesus, even though you might "offend" someone?

Honestly, I hate that "Time" is taking a toll on Christianity.  I hate that we may offend someone by wearing a cross around our neck, but yet others can wear a symbol of their religion, even a weapon...

Our we, as Christians, willing to sit back and watch everyone from politicians, to acquaintances tell us that we can not use our freedoms of speech and religion to bring the word of God to others?  What has time done?  I think it's time that we stand up for Jesus.  It's awful enough that our children can't pray at school.  If let this trend continue, Christianity will be a small speck of dust amongst, well... non christian forms of worship.

I asked my husband, "How do you get to Heaven?"  His simple response, "By accepting Christ as your saviour."  Said and done.  Now, if you care about the ones around you, is it so horrible to let them know?

Have I committed some unjust act by answering the question, "How are you coping?" with this answer, "The strength of God..."  I sure hope not!  I am not telling you you have to be a Christian or shoving my beliefs down your throat,  I am being honest.  I have survived the last 10.5 months due to your prayers and the strength and guidance God has given me during this time.  I have told people that it is comforting to know that my Mackenzie is in heaven with Jesus, and her family...  It makes me want to be the best person i can so i can someday, be there with her.  I have my days, believe me...  but that's the beautiful gift Jesus gave us by dieing on the cross... He took on our sin, so we could be forgiven.

I believe that through the grace of Lord Jesus Christ I shall be saved.

Acts 15:11