You Can Never Go Back...

 This is a hard post for me to do.  I have waited a long long time to do this.  I could not bring myself to write this post and show you these pictures until today.  I do this today because a very very dear friend is living what I have been living for the past nine months.  Yes, Mackenzie would have been 9 months old today.  I needed to post these pictures so my friend would know what she may possibly receive from the hospital after...  I also "know" (online) another family who is also living with the knowledge their daughter will become an angel.  I wanted to show you this so you know about some possible options.  I don't know if every hospital offers these services, but it doesn't hurt to ask, you can never go back.  

The reason I knew of these beautiful and precious gifts is because a young mom that I worked with (whom I now call one of my dearest friends), posted her son's precious memories online a few years back.  Her willingness to share gave me the knowledge, and I was able to ask the staff and social worker about these items, I'm so glad I could...  you can never go back.

The first items you see here are from my "mommas", yes that special group of online friends.  They all got together online and had some special gifts made/had made for Mackenzie.  I will apologize to a couple friends, there are a few gifts that I missed because they are on display in my house and not in my memory box, so I missed taking their pictures.



From my Mommas

Mackenzie's Quilt

                                       

Mackenzie's Doll and Bear

(The bear I received from Thyme Maternity

when Kim and I went shopping together,

 the week before I had Mackenzie. 

We both received a teddy with our purchase. 

Kim's precious Ally now has that same teddy bear.

I've tickled Ally's cute little nose with her teddy...)

Pendant made by Ven

From the Grey Nuns Hospital, Edmonton

Certificate of Life

Coming Home Outfit

(I purchased this a couple months before my due date.)

Mackenzie's Hands

Mackenzie's Feet

Mackenzie's Hand Prints

Mackenzie's Foot Prints

(The pink blanket in the background is

the one she was wrapped in at the hospital.

I keep it in my top drawer.)

Mackenzie's Hat and Hospital Band

Mackenzie's Bassinet Card

 

What I wish I had...

is a lock of her hair...  the staff talked about that with me before she was born.  Mackenzie never had a lot of hair, but I wonder if we could have had just a little bit.  My heart aches that I don't have that.  It breaks my heart that it's to late.  You can never go back...

So if, unfortunately, you ever know someone who goes through this traumatic experience of loosing a child, you now have some knowledge to share with them about some beautiful keepsakes.  Share this knowledge with them in a gentle, loving way.  You can never go back...

Happy 9 months my little angel, Mackenzie!

I know you were peeking out from

behind some clouds today,

two of my mommas saw you.

Much love, Mommy

XOXOXO